i've been feeling anger lately.. actually, for a too prolong length of time that seems unhealthy already. months. 2 months. my mood has been fluctuating to stoic, serene and very angry. sometimes i even forget why. i just feel it. i have never felt this ache as much as i do now. even on the brink of revenge it sound so sweet.im such a pretentious being. or maybe, nobody ever notice.

i want my revenge, my sin. i hate. and i hate more each day. it blurs my stupid intellect. i think harm. i think murder. i think poison. i think anger.

i want to get out. but i can't. i want to move on. but i'm stuck. it's stuck and i can't pry this anger out. i'm destructive. i need to be. if i can't do it to those people, i will to myself in time. i'm slowly tearing myself apart. but i don't want to lose control. i can't let this eat me. or else i will lose. i can't lose. must hold on. i need to prove to them they're wrong. wrong. wrong.

it has killed me. and it will kill me again.

get it out. give my life back.